Friday, October 17, 2014
Writing produces anxiety. Looking inside myself and my experience, looking at my conflicts, engenders anxiety in me. Being a writer feels very much like being a Chicana, or being a queer– a lot of squirming, coming up against all sorts of walls. Or its opposite: nothing defined or definite, a boundless, floating state of limbo where I kick my heels, brood, percolate, hibernate and wait for something to happen.

Gloria Anzaldúa, Borderlands

Women of Color, Impostor Syndrome, and The Left: On Being a Marxist Xicana Writer

Crystal Stella Becerril

Reading Borderlands in the midst of a tempestuous period in my personal and political growth has proven to be an exercise in understanding my cultural identity as much as it has been a political challenge. One which promises many insights and revelations if I can just make it to the other side.

Part of the challenge, however, involves working thru these political and cultural questions thru writing, and like Anzaldúa notes, there is a great deal of anxiety we experience when writing. For me, becoming a writer has been one of the hardest endeavors I’ve ever undertaken. Identifying as a Marxist Xicana writer, an even harder one.

However, because I don’t often write about myself or my lived experiences most of the anxiety I expereince comes from insecurities about my competency and skills. This, of course, is not a new thing. Women, and particularly women of color, suffer disporportionately from “impostor syndrome,” a psychological phenomenon in which people are unable to internalize their accomplishments despite evidence of their competence.

According to the Counceling Center at CalTech, “Impostor syndrome can be defined as a collection of feelings of inadequacy that persist even in the face of information that indicates that the opposite is true. It is experienced internally as chronic self-doubt, and feelings of intellectual fraudulence.”

I remember first learning of impostor syndrome about a year ago and feeling like I’d finally discovered the root of so much of my anxiety in academia as well as in activist circles. I now had a term for what I’d been feeling all my life and understanding my feelings and their consequences has been a taxing project I’ve had to undertake in order to be able to move forward as a woman of color writer and activist.

Perhaps this is why I have always subconsciously sought out recognition with more frequency than perhaps others do– not so much to fullfil a need to feel important or recognized, but rather as a means by which to convince myself of my own competency. And because I’m not just a woman, but a first-generation Xicana, I’ve had to straddle both worlds and convince myself AND them of my competency and worth.

Let me tell you, this shit is hella exhausting! So if we, the left, want to see more women of color getting involved and leading our movements, I’ma need y’all to be conscious of our social, political, and personal struggles cause trying to survive is hard enough but we out here hustling to thrive in a world that’s stacked all possible odds against us.

(via lamarxista)
Sunday, October 12, 2014

canadad:

*cop murders yet another black kid*
white people: w/e
*angry protesters burn the flag of a country built on and supported by systematic oppression*
white people: WELL HONKY TONK DIDDLY DARN WHAT THE HECKAROO IS THIS DISRESPECT OF THOSE WHO GAVE YOU FREEDOM??? *shouts slurs* *fucks the confederate flag*

Sunday, September 14, 2014 Sunday, September 7, 2014

pattilahell:

merisea:

When halloween costumes used to be creepy

Are you fucking serious? This is terrifying.

Friday, September 5, 2014
I notice that Autumn is more the season of the soul than of nature. Friedrich Nietzsche  (via funkypoolparty)
Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Syrian man drinking tea after his house was bombed 

Syrian man drinking tea after his house was bombed 

Monday, September 1, 2014
brazilwonders:

(by Vitor Teixeira)
Instead of wondering when your next vacation is, maybe you set up a life you don’t need to escape from. Seth Godin (via liberatingreality)
Friday, August 22, 2014

nickiandretti:

truest shit i’ve ever read. 

(Source: sentimentaldecadence)

newwavefeminism:

determinedone:

Boondocks Comic Strip

Boondocks speaking blunt truth, as always…

newwavefeminism:

determinedone:

Boondocks Comic Strip

Boondocks speaking blunt truth, as always…

jtotheizzoe:

Best Astrophotography of the Year, as chosen by the Royal Observatory Greenwich.

From both an existential and purely technical/photographic aspect, these shots blow my mind. Check out the full gallery of winners at My Modern Met.

(Top two images by Mark Gee, bottom image by Adam Block)

Bonus: Check out grand prize winner Mark Gee’s breathtaking video of a rising moon and tiny human silhouettes, pointing at it and ooh-ing and ahh-ing and generally marveling at the lunar awesomeness. It’s just … wow.

(Source: tra-nsparent)

halaalpussy:

greenthepress:

carlboygenius:

We are negligent and we are killing our world.

siriuslikesboys:

☾ fucking breathe || 2 + hours of music to help you calm down after a panic attack.


i. those to come - the shins ii. greendale is where i belong - ludwig gorranson iii. kisses and cake - john powell iv. moon river - audrey hepburn v. the predatory wasp of the palisades is out to get us! - sufjan stevens vi. to build a home - cinematic orchestra vii. chantiers navals 412 - lj kruzer viii. pacific rim theme - music box version ix. up all night - oliver tank x. falling asleep with a book on your chest - lullatone xi. wind forest - my neighbor totoro xii. sea of love - cat power xiii. such great heights - iron wine xiv. flower garden - howl’s moving castle xv. can’t help falling in love - fleet foxes xvi. i will follow you into the dark - music box version xvii. holocene - bon iver xviii. boats and birds - gregory and the hawk xix. the breaking of the fellowship - lord of the rings xx.howl’s moving castle theme - music box version xxi. skinny love - birdy xxii. flesh and bone - keaton henson xxiii. never play - emily & the woods xxiv. morning talk/supersymmetry - arcade fire xxv. to your health - keaton henson xxvi. blinsided - bon iver xxvi. wolf trap motel - husky rescue xxviii. i don’t like it like this - the radio dept. xxix. help you breathe - oliver tank xxx. feel real - deptford goth lxi. child i will hurt you - crystal castles lxii. the departure - gattaca lxiii. i was lost without you - mass effect 3 lxiv. saturn - sleeping at last

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siriuslikesboys:

 fucking breathe || 2 + hours of music to help you calm down after a panic attack.
i. those to come - the shins ii. greendale is where i belong - ludwig gorranson iii. kisses and cake - john powell iv. moon river - audrey hepburn v. the predatory wasp of the palisades is out to get us! - sufjan stevens vi. to build a home - cinematic orchestra vii. chantiers navals 412 - lj kruzer viii. pacific rim theme - music box version ix. up all night - oliver tank x. falling asleep with a book on your chest - lullatone xi. wind forest - my neighbor totoro xii. sea of love - cat power xiii. such great heights - iron wine xiv. flower garden - howl’s moving castle xv. can’t help falling in love - fleet foxes xvi. i will follow you into the dark - music box version xvii. holocene - bon iver xviii. boats and birds - gregory and the hawk xix. the breaking of the fellowship - lord of the rings xx.howl’s moving castle theme - music box version xxi. skinny love - birdy xxii. flesh and bone - keaton henson xxiii. never play - emily & the woods xxiv. morning talk/supersymmetry - arcade fire xxv. to your health - keaton henson xxvi. blinsided - bon iver xxvi. wolf trap motel - husky rescue xxviii. i don’t like it like this - the radio dept. xxix. help you breathe - oliver tank xxx. feel real - deptford goth lxi. child i will hurt you - crystal castles lxii. the departure - gattaca lxiii. i was lost without you - mass effect 3 lxiv. saturn - sleeping at last
endpositive:




Tupac holding his middle finger high after being shot.

One of the dopest photo’s i ever seen.

the realest. RIP.

if you don’t reblog this you deserve to be shot by Tupac’s ghost.

endpositive:

Tupac holding his middle finger high after being shot.

One of the dopest photo’s i ever seen.

the realest. RIP.

if you don’t reblog this you deserve to be shot by Tupac’s ghost.

(Source: the-beautification)